in between

It's still 3 in the morning. While I'm awake I thought I should make myself useful. My left eye has been twitching because stress has been setting in and I don't have enough time to do the things I want to get done. One thing, probably toward the bottom of my list but nonetheless there, is to get some more pictures up on this blog. And tell you about our lives.

Right now we are in between. that is such a silly word. Between. between. Between.

We are getting ready for Canada, and therefore have a lot to think about and do. There's paperwork, and billing to arrange, and phones to figure out, and what to pack with us and what to leave for the movers? What will we need for two weeks in Canada before our stuff arrives, for instance? I haven't even started that list. Because I'm focused on James' birthday party, which Ron says I should do less for and give myself a break. But... but... I want to make cake pops! And a big cake! And perfect little goodie bags! and yes, I want to design all the cards myself! eeks. I have cut back from the original plan a bit.

And while Canada is on our brain, we want to focus on here and now with our friends. Enjoy these last moments. Enjoy these last church services. It's almost harder having weeks to say goodbye, prolonging the moment when we know we won't see each other for a long long time.

This place has been good for us. This church. These friends. God has blessed us with good friends here. I have had close girlfriends here for the first time since high school. two in particular. And they were both there the night James was born. And they'll be there on his actual birthday. They'll be at the birthday party, and the after party (doesn't every one year old have an after party?), they've been in my lives the most.

And I will cry. I have teared up. But I will cry sometime. Maybe here, maybe in Canada. You know how guys play fantasy football or whatever it is they do? I wish I could create my A-team for life. I would truck around all my best people with me. So, sorry family, you'd have to pack up and come, too.

This weekend we're heading out of town with our dear friends James and Ashley Smith. I'm glad we made those plans. I'm glad we'll take some more time to relax together, play some dutch blitz and clue, make each other laugh. I don't take these things for granted anymore because I lived for awhile without good friendships like this in my daily life.

It's like God gave this time to us, this spring of water. Friendship. A good church where we've grown and learned more about Him, a church that has felt like family and a Pastor that teaches Truth.

I know He goes before us now. And just for this in between time, I will try to make my eye stop twitching, and enjoy my surroundings.